soliloquy of solitude

I always use all of my heart when in love. Every time. That is why I have always broken to the dust when betrayed. And my last significant other broke me to the extent that I don't know a decent human being capable of doing that. I won't mention in detail how I helped him live for the last 8 years. It's his trait to cheat. And he will do it again. He was only sorry coz he got caught. But, for me. Looking back, I never pick up the opposite gender. Never looking for a romantic partner. Never want to stick myself to another human. That's my trait. To have a significant other, most of the time did me no good. Once got me longing for rainy days , another one made me visit the doctor regularly. And the last one, I knew he was trouble since the first day. Anyway anyhow. Though I can't hate them, I despise what they did to me. And made me think I was the issue. But hey, I've been warning them since the beginning. I don't want us to be together. They thought it was