soliloquy of solitude

  It's been some time since the turbulence day when his betrayal occurred. Yes, I want to focus on mending my broken heart. Yet I also want him to see and fix the damage he made. But I know better what he's capable of. And he is not capable of fixing it. He can't even fix his life. Otherwise, he will still be able to meet Selva. I've been jumping around. Moving out from place to place. Juggling between jobs. Still waking up with chest pain. Still wanna disappear. I'm not getting better. I'm just pretending. I'm not okay