Read This When You Want To Give Up

 I keep listing the reasons why I can't kill myself. And each day it gets shorter. Still, I live. Liking my job, taking care of others, set goals, and actually achieved it. All while still wanna die. So I try to understand, what's exactly in my brain. What's I'm looking for. What's the drive that gets me up every morning. Why I'm in constant pain. Maybe I'm just dramatic, a little bit melancholy. I know what I want is for the pain to stop. And I need to know where the bleeding is to stop it. What and who hurts me. Or No matter what and who, when and how, I need to accept and forgive. Forgive that I can't change the past, I can't change people. Accept that I only can control myself. To tough up and not let it hurts. Maybe this is not about me. Maybe the what and the who weren't aware that they hurt me. It's like a circle. While they tried to protect themselves, they unintentionally hurt others. The fact that I wanna die since 4th grade and sti

TRIPL3 PLAY: Gwen Stefani-fied

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I'm writing this under heavy hormonal cycles.
I lost my mom.
I'm unstable more than ever.
I shut everyone out.
Include my significant other. And things went all wrong.
My words can't reach him any longer.
He kills his love for me.
Now I lost mom and him.
I scream in my dream.
I cried until throwing up.
But never will you see my tears.
And what can you do anyway if you found me crying?

These are my tripl3 play. Hope for closure.

You had me on my knees I'd trade you places any day I'd never thought you could be that way

I give you everything that I am I'm handin' over everything that I've got 'Cause I wanna have a really true love Don't ever wanna have to go and give you up

I thought I was the best thing that ever happened to you I thought you loved me the most