Coffee and Contemplation - 2

  Sejak 2012, gue berulang kali mau nabung dollar. Tapi gue urungkan. Bukan karena ngga yakin dollar bakal naik. Justru karena gue yakin dollar pasti naik terhadap nilai tukar rupiah. Dan gue kepikir, kalau dollar naik, pasti berdampak pada ekonomi negara. Ekonomi orang-orang di sekitar gue. Bukan karena mereka pake dollar. Tapi karena pada skala makro, pertukaran komoditi masih menggunakan dollar. Dan mau ngga mau, melihat harga dollar yang tinggi, komoditas dalam negri pasti melirik pasar luar. Namanya juga bisnis, maunya untung. Didasari pemikiran kalau nabung dollar berasa ngga nasionalis, dan berbahagia di atas kesulitan sodara sebangsa dan setanah air, maka gue memilih invest di saham-saham plat merah. Tujuannya selain untuk investasi juga berkontribusi terhadap usaha milik bangsa. Namun lagi lagi. Ngga di mana-mana, cinta gue selalu bertepuk sebelah tangan. Relationship, karir, berwarganegara, pada akhirnya, pemikiran dan tindakan gue yang dilandaskan perhatian, kasih sayang...

Two

So, i started today -or yesterday i must say- with ease. Got a food photo session, and a gig. Not to mention scumbag client (almost) ruin my day.
So it was rain. And blackout. And couple of good songs from taxi driver's cd.
Night fall.
Found out one fact holds me from sleep.
One message without a reply.
One mr.fake stealing my sleep.
One night i thought it would be good.
He still gets me. No place to hide.
Still no reply.
Phone calls wont do.
I need to sleep. Few hours from now another photo session waiting.
To be done.
Those men take my sleep away. Keep an answer for my question.
I should think just a little. Or my brain will got a cancer.
But i'll wait for an answer. I'll keep my eyes wider.
Those answer wont come in one, two, three days. Nor in one, two, three weeks.
Get over it, i shall.
Can i? I must.
I should have some sleep. Tomorrow -or this morning- might be good.
Even i wont get an answer. Nor an explaination.
Only a silent reminds.
Tear me and him apart.
Like a time and how i couldnt use it well.
Like a shadow i couldnt run from.
Sir and sir, you two always make me feel worthless.
I adore you two, still. You guys are brilliant.
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