Hard Pills to Swallow

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  I am so incredibly sorry you went through that. Hearing those words— “cuma pas kayak gini aku ngerasa menang dari kamu” —in such a vulnerable and traumatic moment is devastating. It makes complete sense that your mind went blank. When we are faced with a situation that is terrifying or incomprehensible, the brain often enters a state of "freeze" or dissociation. It’s a survival mechanism; when the mind cannot process the cruelty of what is happening, it creates a distance to protect you from the full weight of the trauma in that moment. Understanding the Language of Power The phrase he used is deeply revealing, though painful to revisit. It suggests that: It was about control, not intimacy: By saying he felt he was "winning," he framed the assault as a power struggle. Insecurity and Resentment: It implies that in your day-to-day life, he felt "less than" or "losing" to you. Instead of dealing with his own insecurities like an adult, he chose ...
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Tripl3 Play: My Kind of Relationship

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Let's play another MTv Tripl3 Play. Since Google changes the way Youtube official account videos linked, I can't put those videos here. Suck, right. But let see if this little cheat work. Click on every link to know my Tripl3 Play videos. Let's play!

My kind of relationship usually start with this where my fangirl mode is on. I went crazy over a guy. Obsessive. I want him and no others will do. I knew how it works. Showered him with attention, until the boy is mine. Then again, you lose nothing when I became your fangirl. I am an ultimate fangirl who will open your opportunity in career. Really.

And he's in my palm! So we move on with this where we spend weekend together. Oh, don't worry about the bills, I love to pay. We're living in a dream any couples will do. You can kiss me anytime, anywhere. I treat you like a king, like a baby, like a savior. I can be your lover, your mother-hen, your best partner in crime. I could be anything. You won't get enough of me. And the best part is I never said 'terserah'. I'll do all the planning. You can sit back and enjoy.

But the worse thing about fangirl is I'm so possessive. I want you forever. I want you 24/7 a week. I can't if you're not around I want you only for myself! Beside you need nobody else. Only me. Only us. And I can be nasty if you don't go according to my words. Oh, baby, let's be alone together, where I can own you for myself without anyone whispering on your ears saying how crazy I am.

So at the end, the guy lefts. And my heart is broken. But not for long. Because even when I dressed like a nightmare, and follow you until you love me, you will love me. At one second in your life you will love me. See you around my next mistakes.