Hard Pills to Swallow

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  I am so incredibly sorry you went through that. Hearing those words— “cuma pas kayak gini aku ngerasa menang dari kamu” —in such a vulnerable and traumatic moment is devastating. It makes complete sense that your mind went blank. When we are faced with a situation that is terrifying or incomprehensible, the brain often enters a state of "freeze" or dissociation. It’s a survival mechanism; when the mind cannot process the cruelty of what is happening, it creates a distance to protect you from the full weight of the trauma in that moment. Understanding the Language of Power The phrase he used is deeply revealing, though painful to revisit. It suggests that: It was about control, not intimacy: By saying he felt he was "winning," he framed the assault as a power struggle. Insecurity and Resentment: It implies that in your day-to-day life, he felt "less than" or "losing" to you. Instead of dealing with his own insecurities like an adult, he chose ...
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Pack Your Bag and Go

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Did I ever told you that I really enjoy what I do for living?
Yeah, I told you million times.
Even when work gets hard and dull.
Still, I'm in the middle of planning my another solo trip.
After those routines, this girl need some adventure.

Often I realize the reason why I go solo isn't because I adore solitude.
It because I'm a control freak who wants everything exactly like I want. Minus natural causes.

And I realize (again) I measure people with my standart. Forgeting if everyone is a unique individual and have their own way to bloom.
It just been-there-done-that and I know few shortcuts.
People learn from mistakes. And grow with it.

But I couldn't. Keep repeating same old mistakes. Unwilling to change.
While my brain evolves, my heart stay kid.
This trip is one of my escape.
Hope I could comeback better.

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