Normal's might be boring but it's safe.

It's so hard sometimes.
I don't even know if this is me or bipolar.
I don't have any encourage words anymore.
I want this to be ended.
To be normal.
Whatever its meaning.

It sad to sleep all day.
Unable to get up and do stuff.
It's tiring to up all night.
Getting along with stranger.
Flirting and seducing.
I wanna be normal.
To live some bored mediocre life.

Or at least.
I wanna have a one.
To share this awful nightmare.
But.
I'm afraid he might run down the hill.
I wanna be normal.
To feel content with all I have.

This emotion rage.
I couldn't help it anymore.
I need help.