Apa Kabar, Bo?

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  Apa kabar, Bo? Kemarin saya ke Gramedia. Sanctuary saya pas jaman SD. Dulu waktu Hero Swalayan masih ada di Gatot Subroto. Biasanya saya ke sana setelah ngumpulin duit jajan seminggu dan bisa buat beli komik. Ngga seperti sekarang, dulu banyak komik yang sampul plastiknya terbuka, jadi saya puas-puasin baca sebelum akhirnya beli cuma satu.  Jaman itu majalah Bobo tidak setipis sekarang. Apalagi pas edisi khusus, tebalnya bisa ngalahin kamus. Hahaha, bercanda ya, Bo. Bobo benar-benar teman bermain dan belajar saya, ada beberapa dongeng dunia yang sampai detik ini saya masih ingat. Ada juga dongeng lokal yang jadi favorit saya. Mungkin penulis Bobo sudah lupa, ada sebuah cerpen, yang memuat cerita ibu petani yang asik bekerja hingga anaknya kelaparan. Saya ingat ada syairnya: tingting gelinting, perutku sudah genting, kelaparan mau makan. Saya kemudian meniru syair tersebut dan dimarahin Mama. Beliau bilang, ngga pantas didenger orang. Oh ya, Bo. Mama adalah orang yang berjasa...
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Midnight Doctor 7.0

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'Ve been shopping hard?' looking at my shopping bags, the doctor teases me. I cant even produce a smile. I sat at my very familiar chair, put all my gadgets inside my bag and sigh.
I have a lot in my head. Words are banging my brain's wall, searching their way out to my mouth.
'This, is not me.' i gesture to all shopping bag. 'I tried to stop me, but i failed, beside, i need them.'
'Ah, manic attack? And now you're feeling down?'
'Money cant buy happiness. Even you're a good shopper.'
'How's your feeling.'
'Drained, lost, never feeling right. Maybe i should just die. Nobody care about me. Maybe it's doesnt matter whether i exist or not. Noone ever gonna looking for me. I wanna cut my wrist.'
'Shin...' the words are lost. The doctor knows, im saying it just because im sick. 'Shin, what happen?'
I cry instead. 'Nobody cares' I say. And cry again.
'Maybe you need some sleep.'
'My sleep's troubled. I keep waking in odd times, unable to shut my eyes again until dawn.
'Im tired with living and i got noone to watch my back. Im struggling alone. Im lost, im lost. And nobody cares.'
'By nobody, who's exactly you'd expect?'
'People who once need my help. People who i put first before mine. People who without asking it, i'll be there for them.'
'Have you ever ask them?'
'I can tell whenever they're in difficult times. Why cant they do the same to me?'
'Because they got their own life, Shin.'
'And i dont?'
'Do you?'
'Well, i always thinking, if i help them, they ought to help me. I know i never been on anyone priority, it's sad.
'I always left behind, unless they need me. I dont wanna to be on the first list, i just wanna be on the list. That, i never be.'
'Do anyone upsets you?'
'Yes. And it's hard to always bear a mending heart. It always goes to shattered. Life's suck. But why mine?'