Apa Kabar, Bo?

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  Apa kabar, Bo? Kemarin saya ke Gramedia. Sanctuary saya pas jaman SD. Dulu waktu Hero Swalayan masih ada di Gatot Subroto. Biasanya saya ke sana setelah ngumpulin duit jajan seminggu dan bisa buat beli komik. Ngga seperti sekarang, dulu banyak komik yang sampul plastiknya terbuka, jadi saya puas-puasin baca sebelum akhirnya beli cuma satu.  Jaman itu majalah Bobo tidak setipis sekarang. Apalagi pas edisi khusus, tebalnya bisa ngalahin kamus. Hahaha, bercanda ya, Bo. Bobo benar-benar teman bermain dan belajar saya, ada beberapa dongeng dunia yang sampai detik ini saya masih ingat. Ada juga dongeng lokal yang jadi favorit saya. Mungkin penulis Bobo sudah lupa, ada sebuah cerpen, yang memuat cerita ibu petani yang asik bekerja hingga anaknya kelaparan. Saya ingat ada syairnya: tingting gelinting, perutku sudah genting, kelaparan mau makan. Saya kemudian meniru syair tersebut dan dimarahin Mama. Beliau bilang, ngga pantas didenger orang. Oh ya, Bo. Mama adalah orang yang berjasa...
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Midnight Doctor 1.0

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'Hay, how are you? Shud regulary check on you, what's with the Instagram photos?'
The good doctor lines me at nearly midnight.
'That's just a book im reading. You see, im not always feel related to a character in books or movies. But this china rabbit resembles me.'
I talk long. Been a while i tried to skip my meeting with the doctor. Tech fails me. The doctor got me this time.
'Still about the loner stuffs?'
'Yes and all the others.'
'What's the others?'
I read that line over and over again. Not sure i need to tell that to the doctor. But the doctor would find it anyway.
'At some point, i care to myself way too much. That i dont need others to take care of me.'
'Ah... But actually you need them?'
'Like the china rabbit, i got some people that care of me. Yes, im taking them for granted.'
'Are you crying?'
'No, why? Did your eyes full with tears?'
'Hahaha no. It just i would love to see you cry. To show that it's okay to be weak sometimes.'
'Hey, doctor, do you have life to live on other than bashing your patient?'
'Nah, dont be rude. You stop coming to our session. I thought you're out of town. Then you Instagram photos just make me worry.'
'You worry nothing, doc.'
There's a time the doctor overwhelmed me.
'I dont think i deserved to be loved. Im a total mess.'
Finally i talk.
'You already knew that everybody got their own mess.'
'Here's the shrink back!'
'Hahaha things about love, it doesnt stay long. What left is commitment.'
'We both knew i had issues with commitment.'
Seems like the doctor wants to talk long. While i dont. I promised wud show up to our next meeting.
The things about being loved is i never know when the lovers will stop loving me. Meanwhile, i'll always in love. Even when the lovers gone, my love stays. And send a gazzilion questions. What if.
I envy the china rabbit, who's finally open his heart and embrace to be loved. I keep my glass heart in a steel safe. I forgot where the key is. The glass heart stay safety, nothing can hurt the glass heart. And i might forget it existence. I have no heart.