Read This When You Want To Give Up

 I keep listing the reasons why I can't kill myself. And each day it gets shorter. Still, I live. Liking my job, taking care of others, set goals, and actually achieved it. All while still wanna die. So I try to understand, what's exactly in my brain. What's I'm looking for. What's the drive that gets me up every morning. Why I'm in constant pain. Maybe I'm just dramatic, a little bit melancholy. I know what I want is for the pain to stop. And I need to know where the bleeding is to stop it. What and who hurts me. Or No matter what and who, when and how, I need to accept and forgive. Forgive that I can't change the past, I can't change people. Accept that I only can control myself. To tough up and not let it hurts. Maybe this is not about me. Maybe the what and the who weren't aware that they hurt me. It's like a circle. While they tried to protect themselves, they unintentionally hurt others. The fact that I wanna die since 4th grade and sti

Smart Gadgets Need Tech Savvy

Yeah im not going to talk about how stupid people acting by using their smartphone. You know, that saying about smartphone, stupid people,sort of. No, this is more basic from that.
I've been met a bunch of people who using Mac just for typing and emailing. What a waste.
I know some people who cant send email with attachment via their BlackBerry.
I know people who can't install Whatsapp by themself.
And yes we have first lady that using latest camera technologies just for Instagram. What a waste, what a waste.

Some words from my favorite manga said: sword are nothing without its beholder. Are you gonna use your samurai to cut turnip?

So goes those people with hi-tech cellphone but use them as Nokia 3315 or treat their Mac as if it's MS-DOS. What a waste.

And what getting my nerves is i work with some of them. If i ask them to send me file, they would say: 'i should open my pc first' then i said: 'what happen to your BlackBerry?' and they answer: 'how to attach file with BlackBerry?' And i just want to send them to 1994, to using their pc to send email. Geez it's 2 decade ago.

And when you can't install Whatsapp by your own... Oh please dont make yourself look stupid. Google first. And those people who didnt know how to start Mac... There's a button, indisguise, behind Mac thing. Push it, and Mac will starts itself.

When you have some sophisticated things on your hand, explore it, use it to the top. Then again, you wont bother your colleagues -me, for this case- because of your lack tech savvy-ness. People need to learn, have to learn, no matter how old or how conservative they are.

You know, there's a thing called Google, stuffed with all information if you know how to hit it. Google before asking wont make you look stupid. Thank you.