Borrowed Sorrow

  Growing up, I spent most of my time alone. I spent it reading, playing pretend, writing short stories, dancing, and exploring. Of course, I had a crew: a bunch of busybody teenagers exploring the infinite possibilities of our hometown. When puberty hit, I fell in love with the idea of falling in love, but not the actual relationship part. I mostly read about romance in teen magazines and already felt exhausted by the obligations society threw at girls. Back in my day, being sad was a trend. I was there when the first emo punk bands debuted on MTV. I was there when Avril swapped her skateboard for a tutu. But personally, I was happy. So, I borrowed sorrow from pop culture instead. I picked up my brother’s beat-up guitar and learned to play the most heart-numbing songs. I was an emo girl. The quiet kind you could only discover by reading my notes or scrolling through my playlist. I am a middle-aged woman now. What was once a borrowed sorrow has become the story of my life. Those c...

lluvia #28

Tuan, saya rindu.
Udara sehabis hujan dan Eternity memanggil ingatan akan mu.
Tidak berarti saya melewatkan sehari tanpa mengucapkan namamu.
Tuan, apakah kamu nyata?
Saya tidak ingin kehidupan merampas ingatan saya.
Tentang senyummu.
Suaramu.
Tawamu.
Tentangmu.

I miss you it hurts.

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