Borrowed Sorrow

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  Growing up, I spent most of my time alone. I spent it reading, playing pretend, writing short stories, dancing, and exploring. Of course, I had a crew: a bunch of busybody teenagers exploring the infinite possibilities of our hometown. When puberty hit, I fell in love with the idea of falling in love, but not the actual relationship part. I mostly read about romance in teen magazines and already felt exhausted by the obligations society threw at girls. Back in my day, being sad was a trend. I was there when the first emo punk bands debuted on MTV. I was there when Avril swapped her skateboard for a tutu. But personally, I was happy. So, I borrowed sorrow from pop culture instead. I picked up my brother’s beat-up guitar and learned to play the most heart-numbing songs. I was an emo girl. The quiet kind you could only discover by reading my notes or scrolling through my playlist. I am a middle-aged woman now. What was once a borrowed sorrow has become the story of my life. Those c...
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Nayla tak pernah merasa kesepian

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'Kamu dulu pernah bilang kalo kamu butuh luka supaya bisa nulis. Gak kurang sentimentil apa tuh? Gak cuma sentimentil aja, tapi juga begok!' (67)

'Mungkin ia bisa berbagi perasaannya di twitter. Namun ia ragu, karena tak jarang status twitternya dihubung-hubungkan dengan masalah pribadi oleh orang yang ia sering sebut sebagai stalker.' (46)

'Ia sudah cukup tenang hidup di dalam dunia imajinasi yang diciptakannya dalam pikiran. Di dalam dunia ciptaannya itu, Nayla tak pernah merasa kesepian.' (82)

'Membuat tubuh mereka tak lagi duduk saling merapat. Membuat tangan mereka tak lagi berpegangan erat. Membuat bibir mereka tak lagi saling berciuman saat sempat. Membuat hubungan mereka bagai besi tua yang hampir habis dimakan karat' (94)

Buku ke-enam Djenar Maesa Ayu, 'T(w)ITIT!'. Cetakan pertama, 14 Januari 2012.

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