Read This When You Want To Give Up

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 I keep listing the reasons why I can't kill myself. And each day it gets shorter. Still, I live. Liking my job, taking care of others, set goals, and actually achieved it. All while still wanna die. So I try to understand, what's exactly in my brain. What's I'm looking for. What's the drive that gets me up every morning. Why I'm in constant pain. Maybe I'm just dramatic, a little bit melancholy. I know what I want is for the pain to stop. And I need to know where the bleeding is to stop it. What and who hurts me. Or No matter what and who, when and how, I need to accept and forgive. Forgive that I can't change the past, I can't change people. Accept that I only can control myself. To tough up and not let it hurts. Maybe this is not about me. Maybe the what and the who weren't aware that they hurt me. It's like a circle. While they tried to protect themselves, they unintentionally hurt others. The fact that I wanna die since 4th grade and sti
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Fully Distraction

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Don't tell me, I always have some stuff to do. But can you refuse when your friend wanna sharing something? Jadi, out of nowhere, Unyunn muncul di meja saya, 'mba Shinta suka ngedit foto kan? Sini aku kasih link bagus.' Dan dia menjajah mouse baru saya, sibuk ngetik-ngetik di Google, next blink, she gave me this photo editing site. Choose your own effects, overlay and border.



No you don't need to use your imagination. Just some simple click.
Cheers,
Shinta. I'm so into photo editing stuff, gonna give more link later.

PS: unyunn, you should stop that 500 days of summer in your tumblr.

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