Read This When You Want To Give Up

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 I keep listing the reasons why I can't kill myself. And each day it gets shorter. Still, I live. Liking my job, taking care of others, set goals, and actually achieved it. All while still wanna die. So I try to understand, what's exactly in my brain. What's I'm looking for. What's the drive that gets me up every morning. Why I'm in constant pain. Maybe I'm just dramatic, a little bit melancholy. I know what I want is for the pain to stop. And I need to know where the bleeding is to stop it. What and who hurts me. Or No matter what and who, when and how, I need to accept and forgive. Forgive that I can't change the past, I can't change people. Accept that I only can control myself. To tough up and not let it hurts. Maybe this is not about me. Maybe the what and the who weren't aware that they hurt me. It's like a circle. While they tried to protect themselves, they unintentionally hurt others. The fact that I wanna die since 4th grade and sti
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You’ve died in my heart

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Keep your head down U-Know time (Max)
You know what time it is?
This is return of the king
(Everything has ended) I didn't even start yet
(We broke up) I haven't even heard the reason yet
Everyone around me keeps asking me why I'm like this
Why are you like that, why are you like that? I'm already the bad guy
(If it's a sin) If loving you was a sin
(If that was a sin) If being genuine is a sin
(I'll keep it low, I'll keep it low) I'll hold it in and stand my ground
(Keep your head down)
You look pretty, but inside you're so different, that's what I'm afraid of
(Keep your head down)
I said I loved you but I'll let you go
(Why?) Did you leave me so easily
(Why?) Did I look easy to you?
(Why?) My heart is ripping to shreds
(Why?) If every moment was a dream
(Why?) If only I had the time to set it right
(Why?) I prayed for your happiness
I was always satisfied with having you
I was happy to dream the same dream as you no matter what they said
I had to let you go, but I'm just walking my path anyway
Now I'm just chillin', Feel like I'm healing
It's too late, you said you can't come back
You've always believed that I'd crumble without you
That's a misunderstanding, why would I do that? why, why, I told you I wouldn't
(Hey) I was really, really sad, because you were so immature
and I was afraid you'd meet someone bad (Why? baby)
(Keep your head down)
You're really pretty, but that's all there is to you, there's nothing important inside of you
(Keep your head down)
A nail is driven into the heart that is holding in the pain of love
Ha~ Don't play with people like that
In front of me, all you do is speak of lies
You're such a two-faced person
(Why why why) Since when did our crystal-like feelings become so opaque?
Our love has ended, I've let you go, and now my heart is empty
But my future is gesturing towards me to get up and smile
I'm letting you go, live happily (why why why)
One day far from now, far from now, I want to just smile comfortable
(Why?) Why
(Why?) You let go of our love so easily
(Why?) Did you ever think that someone would get worried?
(Why?) I don't think you know yet
(Why?) Exactly just what you let go of
(Why?) Just remain there and watch me grow
(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you've burned to death in my heart
(Keep your head down)
Erased, disappeared, you've died in my heart and you no longer exist
- I always enjoy this song. Keep ur head down from TVXQ

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