Read This When You Want To Give Up

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 I keep listing the reasons why I can't kill myself. And each day it gets shorter. Still, I live. Liking my job, taking care of others, set goals, and actually achieved it. All while still wanna die. So I try to understand, what's exactly in my brain. What's I'm looking for. What's the drive that gets me up every morning. Why I'm in constant pain. Maybe I'm just dramatic, a little bit melancholy. I know what I want is for the pain to stop. And I need to know where the bleeding is to stop it. What and who hurts me. Or No matter what and who, when and how, I need to accept and forgive. Forgive that I can't change the past, I can't change people. Accept that I only can control myself. To tough up and not let it hurts. Maybe this is not about me. Maybe the what and the who weren't aware that they hurt me. It's like a circle. While they tried to protect themselves, they unintentionally hurt others. The fact that I wanna die since 4th grade and sti
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lluvia #23

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'I heard you re in love.'
'Am I?'
'Yes, you are.'
'With you?'
'No, silly. With that boy.'
'I don't wanna get over you.'

'What's about that boy?'
'I like to see he smiles. Just like yours.'
'That's what i like about you. Is he nice?'
'He doesn't make me cry. Not yet.'
'You should let him know that you love him.'
'I love you.'

'I don't wanna get over you.'
'You should. Im no good for you.'
'I am not enough for you.'
'Stop.'
'I tried. And I failed.'

'Find your happiness. With that boy.'
'I need no one to be happy.'
'That's good.'
'If I with him, did your offer still on?'
'What? No. Forget that. Lets just be you and be me. Not a friend, not a lover, not an enemy, not a stranger.'
'Then what?'
'Tell him your feeling.'
'I don't wanna get over you.'
'You will.'
'No, I wont.'

I see a hope. One that you can't gave me.

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