Read This When You Want To Give Up

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 I keep listing the reasons why I can't kill myself. And each day it gets shorter. Still, I live. Liking my job, taking care of others, set goals, and actually achieved it. All while still wanna die. So I try to understand, what's exactly in my brain. What's I'm looking for. What's the drive that gets me up every morning. Why I'm in constant pain. Maybe I'm just dramatic, a little bit melancholy. I know what I want is for the pain to stop. And I need to know where the bleeding is to stop it. What and who hurts me. Or No matter what and who, when and how, I need to accept and forgive. Forgive that I can't change the past, I can't change people. Accept that I only can control myself. To tough up and not let it hurts. Maybe this is not about me. Maybe the what and the who weren't aware that they hurt me. It's like a circle. While they tried to protect themselves, they unintentionally hurt others. The fact that I wanna die since 4th grade and sti
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Paradise?

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When she was just a girl. She expected the world.But it flew away from her reach. So she ran away in her sleep. Dreamed of para- para- paradise:

'This place is a paradise only if you're here. A paradise that has locked you in against your will. A sad paradise that you won't go if you're awake. A paradise that we can be together forever, oh'

Leaving reality behind, everytime I closed my eyes, I dreamed of paradise, when I locked u in against ur will.

Para para paradise... niga isseoya man yeogi ga paradise.

Oh, well, sorry for mash up Coldplay with Infinite. Maybe I'll do 30STM with MBLAQ on another post :)

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