Read This When You Want To Give Up

 I keep listing the reasons why I can't kill myself. And each day it gets shorter. Still, I live. Liking my job, taking care of others, set goals, and actually achieved it. All while still wanna die. So I try to understand, what's exactly in my brain. What's I'm looking for. What's the drive that gets me up every morning. Why I'm in constant pain. Maybe I'm just dramatic, a little bit melancholy. I know what I want is for the pain to stop. And I need to know where the bleeding is to stop it. What and who hurts me. Or No matter what and who, when and how, I need to accept and forgive. Forgive that I can't change the past, I can't change people. Accept that I only can control myself. To tough up and not let it hurts. Maybe this is not about me. Maybe the what and the who weren't aware that they hurt me. It's like a circle. While they tried to protect themselves, they unintentionally hurt others. The fact that I wanna die since 4th grade and sti

It just means that the time we had together was a bit sharp

[DJ] When the world turns dark
And the rain quietly falls
Everything is still

[KK] Even today, without a doubt
I can't get out of it
I can't get out from the thoughts of you

[YS] Now
I know that it's the end
I know that it's all just foolishness
Now I know that it's not true

[HS] I am just disappointed in myself for
Not being able to get a hold of you because of that pride

[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well

[JH] I must be drunk, I think I need to stop drinking
Since the rain is falling, I think I might fall as well
Well this doesn't mean that I miss you, no it doesn't mean that
It just means that the time we had together was a bit sharp
When it's the type of day that you really liked
I keep opening the raw memories of you
Making the excuse that it's all memories, I take a step forward
I don't even make the effort to escape

[DW] Now
I erased all of you
I emptied out all of you
But when the rain falls again

[KK] All the memories of you I hid with effort
It all comes back, it must be looking for you

[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well

(To you) [HS] Now there is no path for me to return
But looking at your happy face

[DW] I will still try to laugh since I was the one
Without the strength to stop you

[YS] On the rainy days you come and find me
Torturing me through the night
When the rain starts to stop, you follow
Slowly, little by little, you will stop as well

[JH] What can I do about something that already ended?
I'm just regretting after like the stupid fool I am
Rain always falls so it will repeat again
When it stops, that's when I will stop as well

[JH] Rain always falls so it will repeat again
When it stops, that's when I will stop as well

- Beast will come to the town, this month!! What can I ask for more On Rainy Days?

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