Hard Pills to Swallow

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  I am so incredibly sorry you went through that. Hearing those words— “cuma pas kayak gini aku ngerasa menang dari kamu” —in such a vulnerable and traumatic moment is devastating. It makes complete sense that your mind went blank. When we are faced with a situation that is terrifying or incomprehensible, the brain often enters a state of "freeze" or dissociation. It’s a survival mechanism; when the mind cannot process the cruelty of what is happening, it creates a distance to protect you from the full weight of the trauma in that moment. Understanding the Language of Power The phrase he used is deeply revealing, though painful to revisit. It suggests that: It was about control, not intimacy: By saying he felt he was "winning," he framed the assault as a power struggle. Insecurity and Resentment: It implies that in your day-to-day life, he felt "less than" or "losing" to you. Instead of dealing with his own insecurities like an adult, he chose ...
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Have You Found My Tumblr?

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So, belakangan gue sering nge-capture Tumblr gue dan gue jadiin default pic BBm. Rupanya, beberapa temen gue feel related dan nge-copy potongan-potongan gambar itu. Mereka suka nanya: 'emang pas lagi ngepost ini, apa yang lo rasain?'. Gue juga suka jawab, kalau pertanyaannya gak susah dan gak bikin galau.
my back stage

Aslinya sih, karena beberapa waktu lalu gue deactive Twitter dan Facebook, gue gak punya sarana buat nulis kata-kata sampah. Jadi gue bikin Tumblr yang gue paksakan jadi Twitter. Since this Tumblr was new and noone knows, iseng gue capture dan jadiin default pic BBm. Yah, biar tulisan sampah tadi kebaca sama yang mau baca lah. Terus gue jadi ganti default pic sehari 3 kali, minimal.
Temen-temen gue banyak yang nanya, 'apa sih alamat Tumblr lo? Pake rahasiaan segala.' Sebenernya bukan dirahasiain. Tapi tulisannya jahat. I write almost everything. Takutnya, lo orang pada tersinggung. Hahahaha. Liat dong judulnya, Back Stage, belakang layar, tempat gue bisa jadi Shinta dan orang lain nggak boleh nge-judge gue. Sedangkan blog ini, Front Stage, tempat gue bermain peran.
While people only see what they wanna see, they have no idea. People, you only see what I choose to show.

Shinta,  I'm not growing up, I just compromise.

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